I will honor

So I had a date, a venue, a menu, an Airbnb ... a full plan. I was about to put down the deposit, but I was stalling.

I asked myself why. I had conversations with friends & fellow coaches helping uncover my why.

And when I asked myself: do you WANT to do this? My innerness whispered: no

Somewhat shamefully I did not actually want to host/coordinate an event to acknowledge my dad's death. 😬

Well that feels shitty to say out loud.

I was doing it because it's supposed to happen. I was doing it thinking I needed it to happen. I was doing it to be responsible.

But when I really sat with all those reasons they didn't fit my here & now.

Newish fact to consider: The world will not fall apart if I don't volunteer to help.

What did I feel when I contemplated not doing it? Relief ... well there's a freaking clue!

Ok but what will people think? 😬

More newish facts: I'm not responsible for what they think. I'm no longer living life to receive validation or avoid judgement. I'm living to honor myself.

What do I need?
I need to move on. I need to have joy & fun & not forget but also not stay in it all. I need to allow peace with the complexity of who my dad was, the relationship we had & the fact it's no longer happening in a physical on Earth way. And it's all really ok. 💗

So that's what I'll do.

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